(I know I have not done the Forgiveness blog yet – I guess I am not ready to do that one yet…)
Today’s topic – Maintain or continue on my Weight loss Journey ….
Okay so I am in a sort of Rut to say. Let me explain. When I started my weight loss Journey in May 27th, 2013; my 1st goal was to loose 100 pounds by end of the year – this goal was accomplished on Dec 7th, 2013. Next Goal was 50 more pounds by June 2014 – accomplished April 24th 2014. (this put me at 205 total) then I planned on going 25 pounds at a time until….well I told myself at the time a size 10 (or 175 lbs).
Considering in May 2013 I was in a size 38 and in December 2013 I purchased size 22 – a size 10 seemed a reasonable ultimate goal for me….
Well I have been in a size 10 jean for about 3 months now – Yippee. And the scale shows 167 lbs. So what is the dilemma you ask?
I look in the mirror and think I should loose more — but I have been stuck in a maintenance mode for about 2 months now. So what is the deal…
I keep trying to figure that out. Many people have said that I have lost enough. Maybe that is true, but here is my question….If you never knew I had lost 188 pounds and I came to you today, would you say that I Do or Do Not need to lose any weight?
See I think most would say YES I could stand to loose weight, but everyone around me says I have lost enough. Why is that? Is it because I have lost so much that I should be content? Are they just trying to be nice? Is it true, have I lost enough? I still have very big thighs and a big stomach and my arms have wings — how much is this skin that I can only try to deal with by toning versus Fat that can be lost – I am not sure. So my confusion begins…and continues.
For the past 2 months I have been on a maintenance eating/exercise plan and only looking at the scale twice a month instead of once a week (and I have not been losing but more importantly not gaining). I stopped tracking every meal and counting every calorie. I wanted to see if I could maintain my weight while being normal and not so obsessed. Mission accomplished. I also knew I wanted to hit the gym more and work with weights to try to help with some of my skin issue (wings are large and another blog topic for sure – so I can stay on point with this post). Also many have said I was doing too much cardio (but I attribute cardio to my weight loss) so more weights less cardio = maintenance for me and no clothes size change. hmmm. – But I am noticing muscles definitions in my arms and legs – 🙂
I mentioned my size 10 goal at the start of this blog. The reason I mentioned that goal is that I think it has also kinda gone to my head. I am there. I thought 175 pounds for me would be good and I am now sitting at 167. I started this journey wanting to be able to participate in life. AND I AM – para-sailing, zip lining, alpine coaster, alpine sled, weekly hiking trips, etc…. I have more stuff on my list that were only dreams before due to my size (go on a cruise, ride a roller coaster, ski (water and snow), go tubing, etc) and to be honest at my size now none of these are restricted due to my weight. So thus my stall….I want to lose more (and think I need to and should), but my motivations are kinda gone, if that makes sense, coupled with so many saying “I have lost enough” (what does that really mean). If ANYONE actually reads this blog – I would REALLY appreciate some comments to give me feedback – HONEST feedback – PLEASE.
Thank you for taking the time to read and hopefully some of you will post feedback for me — I NEED IT!